Friday, May 7, 2010

I am stuck in bed trying to recover from whatever I did to my back yesterday. The hardest thing in the world for me to do is to lay around. I feel like such a lump. I have to take it easy today for as long as I can because I have to work 9 hours at work today. My back does feel a bit better so I am crossing my fingers it won't seize up again. I'm also carrying some extra strength pain killers. I am too young for this!

I have been stressing lately because of my to do list. It isn't a small one either. It is filled with some incredibly big things.

1. Find a new apartment in a different city before June 20th.
2. Find a new job in same city so I don't have to commute to my current job. Also, I am hating my current job and I need a change.
3. Tell my parents about some a fantastic decision I have made for myself that they will not like or approve of.
4. Find out how to best help my sister. She is so full of anger/rage and is not dealing with it in a good way. I don't think coming home for the summer will change anything. I don't think my mom is taking this as seriously as she should. My sister almost got evicted. My sister refuses to talk to my dad so I am trying to decide if I need to tell him what is going on. He used to be an anger management counselor so he would be the best person to deal with it. But how do I do that without my sister and mother feeling like I betrayed my sister's trust? Is it worth it? Would it only create more trouble?

Any suggestions would be awesome. I am feeling a little overwhelmed at everything I have to do but at the same time I have a sense of peace. I am working hard and I know that somehow it will all be taken care of. Well everything except #4. I am at a loss with that one.


Juliana said...

Hang in there! Sounds like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders!

Anna said...

Thank you :)

Lindsey said...

First of all, feel better! I'm struggling with a strained lower back, a weakened disc apparently, and it hurts to sit, stand, or lay down. Kind of makes just BEING quite difficult :)

Get well soon!