Wednesday, November 17, 2010


I've been doing really well.
(It's easy to be ok when everything is going smoothly.)
Then I hit a bump which jarred me.
I am shaken up and unsure.
I can't find my way.
And you're not here to help me.
I miss my friend.

I'm a little lost right now and it's a little scary. Before when this happened I had one person I wasn't scared to go to for help. One. I trusted him completely and I never was afraid he would judge me- sometimes I felt like he did judge me but I was never afraid to tell him anything. That is the key phrase. I wasn't afraid. Don't get me wrong, I have lots of wonderful and amazing friends but there is always something I hold back for fear of judgement. Maybe this is something I have to learn. Maybe I have to learn how to make myself ok. I just don't want to.


Melodie Peachey said...

Oh Bananna.. I understand completely, because I do the exact same thing. I just wanted to say that maybe, together, we can learn to let go of that fear with each other and grow personally.. And at the same time, we'll just become better friends (if that's possible).

You can KNOW in your heart of hearts that nothing you EVER say to me will be judged. I promise!

I love you!

Anna said...

Oh my Melo. I love you so very much. Thanks for being a great friend to me :)