(It's easy to be ok when everything is going smoothly.)
Then I hit a bump which jarred me.
I am shaken up and unsure.
I can't find my way.
And you're not here to help me.
I miss my friend.
I'm a little lost right now and it's a little scary. Before when this happened I had one person I wasn't scared to go to for help. One. I trusted him completely and I never was afraid he would judge me- sometimes I felt like he did judge me but I was never afraid to tell him anything. That is the key phrase. I wasn't afraid. Don't get me wrong, I have lots of wonderful and amazing friends but there is always something I hold back for fear of judgement. Maybe this is something I have to learn. Maybe I have to learn how to make myself ok. I just don't want to.