Monday, May 9, 2011

I've recently discovered will power

Oh hello there.

I notice that I am kind of a downer on here. I promise that doesn't reflect who I am in real life. I am quite the ray of sun shine. I guess I don't really believe the day to day awesomeness is really that interesting to anyone. It's just my life. Also, I tend to embrace the darkness. I feel that in dark low down depths of your soul is where true revelation comes from. By embracing and expressing those feelings you express the essence of yourself. I create best when it comes from a place of anguish. The pain lets me know how deeply I can feel. Wow, I am rather intense. Story of my life :)

I've been switching things up in my world. I got tired of living with a state of perpetual exhaustion so I sought out a naturopath for help. I've cleaned up my diet by incorporating more real food. I have cut out all processed sugar, dairy, white flour, white rice, and potatoes. Basically all the white food groups. I've also been moving more and making a choice to exercise. I've always found it hard because the things I most enjoy are reading and watching movies which are stationary activities. I've also been taking better care of myself by eating breakfast, keeping snacks with me so I eat when I'm hungry instead of going without, and eating more vegetables. It has been painful and hard but I am starting to see the results after 3 weeks. I've lost 11lbs (woot woot), I don't feel as tired throughout the day, I'm not nauseous in the mornings, and I have fewer headaches. I still want chocolate though....badly, like right now.

My naturopath has also prescribed me UNDA drops. I had never heard of them before. You can read about them here: (I'm too lazy to look up how to make the link clickable. If someone wants to tell me how I'm totally open to it). She also gave me a tincture. It tastes absolutely terrible. It is supposed to get my pituitary gland talking to my ovaries correctly because I have some messed up hormones. I'm also drinking 100 ounces of water a day. Really though, I don't keep track. I just drink water constantly. I have noticed that I have to pee way more often which makes me believe I have successfully upped my water intake.

It is nearing the point in the school term that everything is due and I can not wait for summer to get here. I just finished writing a biography of Thich Nhat Hanh and he is currently inspiring me. I checked out a whole bunch of books about him from the school library. I wasn't able to read all of them before I wrote my paper but I am reading them now. I find such inspiration and peace when I read his writing.

Well there is my normal catch up on my life story. That wasn't too bad. Maybe one of these days I'll fix up the old blog layout.


Melodie Peachey said...

Love it! I am SO proud of you!! And I'm right behind you! Let's keep it up, darling. I miss you so so so so so so much. I really need to see your ray of sunshine face soon. I love you. You are and always will be my person.

- <3

Anna said...

Aww thanks :) I am proud of you too and I miss you! You're my person :)

Brandi {not your average ordinary} said...

I can absolutely relate to so much of what you wrote. Thich Nhat Hanh is a brilliant author (one of my favorite) and I always find his words so inspiring. As for diet, I really do need to cute out much of the same. I'm so low on energy lately and getting up each morning is really difficult. I'm stressed to with schoolwork, which never helps my eating habits and I feel guilty about food a lot. So much to do, so little time right now. I'm definitely going to make the effort to eat better and get more exercise though.

Anna said...

Hi Brandi. Thanks for stopping by :) Good for you! We can totally do this but man is it hard to eat right when there is too much stress and not enough sleep.

wilybrunette said...

wow, such positive changes--are you noticing a difference (other than having to pee all the time)? do you feel energized and good?

ps: i think it's totally great that you embrace the darkness too--you're right about the feeling deeply thing.

Anna said...

Hello :)

I think the biggest change is that when I eat well I feel kinder to myself. I feel like I'm taking care of myself and therefore showing myself the same kindness that I do to others. It makes me feel more loving towards myself. That is the biggest positive change I've noticed.