Rain falls, angry on the tin roof

Isn't it amazing how things appear when you most need them?

A chain of events has unfolded recently that has made me think....

Maybe this life that I am in the middle of,

isn't a series of random moments.

Maybe there is a plan

Maybe I've found where I fit.

Now If I could just get the one answer to the question that has been nagging at me for close to a year.

Take it away or give me everything I never knew I wanted.

Evidence of my advanced age

In my literature class we read a story that told of an ideal marriage. The couple loved each other, had children, were satisfied with their life, and had hobbies and interests they enjoyed until they died. Everyone in my literature class said how boring their life was. I disagree (I am in a 100 level class so most everyone else is 18 or 19 years old. I am 24). I remember being their age and thinking that stability was boring. I remember wanting a passionate, daring, adventurous love. I wanted the bad boy, the one who would keep me guessing. Then, I had a couple of them. I had relationships that were dramatic with screaming matches and drama. We broke up, got back together, broke up and got back together endlessly. I fell head over heels with someone who left me so suddenly it made my head spin. One day we were in love, the next he wouldn't return my phone calls. I had drama.

Now that I am older I want stability. I don't want boring but there is a difference between boring and stable. Having stability in a relationship means knowing you are safe. It means never having to doubt your partner. It means knowing that you are loved and feeling secure that your love will not be rejected. I don't think that is boring. I want a life like the one in the story.

*image found on Slice of Pink. I don't know how to hyper link yet. Apologies.

I want to....

Be someone who dances/sings/laughs without being self conscious

Know....

Comfort those who are in need

Be there to protect my sister

Stop procrastinating

Go to the beach

Feel returned love

Be free with my smiles

Travel all over the world

Leave my job

Be content with myself and my decisions.

I'm back!

I finally got a computer! It's a Mac and I love it. I named it Vincent. Ned (my iphone) has some serious competition now.

It's sunny which = happiness

*I have one more final left until this term is officially over. I'm expecting good results ;)
*One more week until I get a computer! I will finally be able to update this thing somewhere other than the school computer lab. Which means I will start updating again.
*I am dreaming about traveling to Italy. This lovely girls blog started it! http://celesteswanderlust.blogspot.com/
*I'm wanting a camera. I haven't owned one in 3 years.
*I am so excited for this week to hurry up and end because that means......

A road trip to see far away friends.
Cats! (the musical) + dinner at a fabulous restaurant in Portland with the mom and sister
A gluten free baking party with 2 of my friends I've known since I was 5.
A weekend of birthday fun with my best girlfriends.
Twinight!!!
A get together with my pregnant pal and her two adorable kiddos.
Finally meeting the little man who has been hiding in my friends uterus (I don't care what everyone says, a baby is in the UTERUS not the belly) for the past 9 months.

*Something is happening. I can feel it.

In a quote-y mood

I don't have very many words today. So I'll let other people's word speak for me.

"A girl doesn’t need anyone who doesn’t need her."

Marilyn Monroe

"Women and girls are one of the world’s greatest untapped resources. Remember the proverb, ‘Give a man a fish, and he’ll eat for a day, teach a man to fish, and he’ll eat for a lifetime?’ Well, if you teach a woman to fish, she’ll feed the whole village."

Secretary of State Hillary Clinton

You can oppose them only with the strength they think they have taken away.

~Marianne Pearl

If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Not put foundations under them.

~Henry David Thoreau

I am...

Loving
Passionate
Caring
Strong
Protective
Creative
Loyal
True
Generous
Vibrant
Curious
Independent
Ready.....