tonight I could write the saddest lines

When I love, I love deep. I am the worst, the clingy, needy type.
It's because I'm used to grasping.

Holding on
accepting what I can get.

Just once I want a love that is mine. One that I wont have to hold on to.
One that will cling and shimmer and drape around me like shawl......

Something to keep me warm

The worst thing in the world

I recently realized that all I want in life is to be a housewife. I want to make bread, can food, clean house, have kids and keep a home for my husband.

This is everything I was raised to scorn. My mother would be so horrified if she found out.

Things I wanted to say

I know your all new agey "my thoughts create my world" but you won't get skin cancer because I told you "If you keep tanning you're going to get skin cancer." You will get skin cancer by going tanning twice a week and laying out in the sun every day!

Visualize what you want and it will happen

I've been hearing a lot about visualization and making your dreams come true through putting good thoughts out there. So I'm going to do that. I'm going to believe and wish and hope with all my might and see what happens.

A treat for all

The IT guy at work thinks I'm crazy.

I may or may not have been bored at work and googling everything I can think of and somehow got some viruses on the computer. Maybe. They fire people for "inappropriate computer usage" and I was freaking out. I call IT and the guy solves it. I'm so relieved and grateful I start blabbing at high speed. I said something like "Thankyou so much you're my favorite person ever I feel like I should send you a fruit basket I'm going to send you an Edible Arrangements like the one on the commercials that are on all the time with the carved and chocolate covered fruit!"

He said "have a nice day."

I love making people uncomfortable.

E=MC.....I'm screwed

I forgot how much I hate math. I started back at school today with one class....intermediate algebra. Bleck. Ever since the economy went down the crapper and I lost 48% of my investments (stabba stabba) I came to the conclusion that I wont be able to live the kind of life I want to without a better job. I figure that becoming an RN would be the best career path for me. With all the elective classes I've taken I only have the science part left to do and that will take me a year and a term. Plus one of the few fields that has shown growth lately is healthcare. I figure that by completing my RN I will secure a better future for myself and be able to afford to travel. This will be my second attempt at nursing and this time I am confident that I can do it. There is no trying this time, there's just success.


Oh and I'm moving out of my mom's house. Heck freakin yes! When I moved back home I told myself this would just be temporary. Temporary turned into 2 years. I move in two weeks to a beautiful townhouse that includes landscaping in the (inexpensive) rent. Let's hope the boys who cut my grass are cute ;)

Our 44th president

This is the first election where the person I voted for won.